Working sucks

FUCK!!!! ( sorry mom, it just fell out of my mouth) I am so frustrated with my job that I could freaking scream!!!!

In the last week, I have been slammed - back to back patients for two weeks in a row - class upon class. Each time I make a decision about how to handle something my boss lady - who told me she doesn't micromanage - has to shoot me a pile of e-mails or call me. I am SO tired of all of this. Last week I got sent to the satellite hospital which is 30 minutes away - had to leave at 4:15 instead of 4:30 - got in trouble even though I saw twice as many patients as they expected me to. My beeper fell out of my pocket in the rush and when they beeped me, I didn't answer - but that explanation wasn't good enough - now I need to call my boss if I have to leave 10 minutes early - WTF!!! I am salaried - so when I came in at 7:15 this morning to get caught up - I didn't bother to tell her - now I'm sending an e-mail.

I don't mind working hard - but slamming me all the time, then being upset that I am behind is just not fair. I am the first to volunteer to help out - putting myself behind, then I come early to get caught up - and instead of being appreciative, I get flack. Too old and too laden with other things at home to have a job that is going to stress me out. I am working now in my dreams - four nights in a row.

I hope that things lighten up - I don't want to go - but I work so that I can afford to live - not live to work and when things start to feel otherwise, it's time to re-evaluate my job.

Today, I posted my resume. I cannot take it anymore. I love seeing patients but the constant picking is more that I can handle - and frankly, I've been a nurse for 11 years - I don't have to take it if I don't want to.