It has been a very long time since I posted anything - and oddly enough, I am still posting from Georgia. I thought for sure that something would open up with my company in New Mexico and that I was headed there before summer started - and as it turns out, the economy prevented that. The company is doing extraordinarily well - but being fiscally responsible, they didn't add a lot of new external postitions.
The housing market still hasn't recovered and there is no way I am losing money on this house if I can at all prevent it. So much has changed since last winter - the house is different now. I am single again and the saga of our struggle to convert a good friendship into a marriage has finally ended. It is bittersweet and yet full of the hope and promise of a new path.
My sons have grown physically into me - towering over me at 6 foot something. I still can't get used to the idea that the bitty kids I carried on my hips are now so very tall. My daughter has grown into a woman- with a life and dreams and loves of her own.
I read The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch- if you haven't read it, you should take the time. Totally worthwhile. It asks you to reflect on what you wanted to be when you were little. I wanted to be a Maryknoll missionary. One of those nuns who lived out in the bush and cared for people without health care. I wonder now if that will ever be a part of my story- the nun part is doubtful. As my kids get older and I am nearing that second half of my life, the idea is tantalizing. Maybe all of my character flaws: you know the inability to match, not being high maintenance, love of dirt, and herbs and all growing things - well maybe those are weird in this scenario but would be perfect for living in the bush. Ha! We'll see what happens.
In the meantime, my soul has genuinely missed you all.
Ahhhh, now what to write about....
